Monday, October 31, 2016

Declaration of freedom from depression

With you, O Lord, I am free. I am free from depression. I am free from the worries and stress about tomorrow. The fact that you are the only one who knows what tomorrow has in store for me, makes me more relaxed and loyal to you. I surrender all my concerns and stress unto you. Ease my mind O Lord and take over my thoughts. Take away all the negative thoughts crowding my mind, O Lord, and replace them with positivity and hope. Give me power to overcome the devil's negativity in my heart and mind, and make me victorious over my depression. In Jesus name I submit this humble prayer. Amen.

Sunday, October 23, 2016

Realization

I came to a realization a few days ago. I read through almost all of the "On This Day" posts on Facebook just about every day. I read one several days ago from before Genevieve turned one. It was a post complaining about something Mike did, can't remember what, and about going to going to spend some time at my mom's house in Nashville.

Remembering how I felt that day....I was dealing with depression even that far back. I was able to deal with it and not need the treatment as badly as I do now. I wish I had known then what I know now. I would have swallowed my pride and asked for help. I would have found better coping skills that could have prevented my recent breakdown.

It hurts. It honestly hurts my heart that my family and I suffered as long as we did. I'm sure it contributed to a lot of our stresses. I wouldn't change my choices other than that. I am who I am because of what I have been through. I am who I am because of the choices I've made. I am a much different person than what I could have been. I am me. It's as simple as that.

Thursday, October 20, 2016

My Worrywart Prayer

Dear Jesus,
I give you my whole self.
I humble myself before You,  
believing You are bigger than me,
that You are more than capable  
to handle my burdens.  
I don't know what outcome   
of me giving up control  
of my whole self will be,  
but even so, I open my fist
and let You grab it  
(or the person) from me.
I want Your will.  
I want Your presence.
I need Your strength.
Please take this burden today
and use it in my life for Your glory.
Help me to entrust my whole self to You
even when things seem dark.  
I trust You. At least I try.
But help me to trust You today.
Right now, I give it up.  
I choose not to worry anymore about this. Amen.

The Worrywart Prayer

Dear Jesus,
I give you _____________.
I humble myself before You,
believing You are bigger than me,
that You are more than capable
to handle my burdens.
I don't know what outcome 
of me giving up control
of ________ will be,
but even so, I open my fist
and let You grab it
(or the person) from me.
I want Your will.
I want Your presence.
I need Your strength.
Please take this burden today
and use it in my life for Your glory.
Help me to entrust ________ to You
even when things seem dark.
I trust You. At least I try.
But help me to trust You today.
Right now, I give it up.
I choose not to worry
anymore about this. Amen.

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

Prayer for my daughter

Oh heavenly Father,
I life up my daughter to you.
I love her so much,
Please take care of her Lord.
Cover her with your blessings,
And protection. 
Let me let go,
Of my desire to conform her,
To my will.
Show me how to protect her,
And guide her into wisdom.
Let her know she is loved, 
As she is.
Let me love her also,
As she is.
Let her know she is indeed, 
A princess,
In a kingdom far greater,
Than any fairy tale.
A kingdom with a,
Great King,
Who reigns with justice,
And mercy.
Make her strong in your Word.
Let her be tender and gentle,
And let your love flow, 
Through her life and her heart.
In Jesus' holy Name,
Amen.

Conflict Resolution

Lord Almighty, anger, hatred, and
bitterness is not of You. You are the
God of Grace
God of Peace
God of Mercy
but most importantly,
You are the
God of Love.

Teach me to forgive and resolve
any conflicts that may arise.
Help those around me to 
resolve their situations and 
may we all execute that 
never-failing eternal love 
to one another. 

Change Me O Lord

Dear God,
Work on my attitude. Teach me to be more
loving, compassionate, patient, obedient, and
humble. Strip away the anger, the bitterness, 
the stubbornness, laziness, pride, and 
complacency. Help me to become more like 
You and to practice what I preach.
In Jesus' name, Amen!

The Set Me Free Prayer

Jesus, set me free from others' 
expectations of me, my
perfectionism that stresses me out,
and the fear that sees to be my 
constant companion. Instead, would
You be that constant companion?
Replace my worry with winsome
faith. Replace my fright with
settled joy. Replace my striving 
with true relaxing peace. Amen

Monday, October 17, 2016

Prayer for a Change of Heart

Dear loving God,
Thank you for,
Another day of life.
Today I seek,
A change of heart.
I suffer from hardness.
Please change me Lord,
Only you can do this.
Give me a humble heart,
A merciful heart.
Let me learn to trust you more,
And me less.
Let me understand,
That you alone are worthy,
And only by Christ's blood,
Am I justified.
All my other efforts,
Are but filthy rags,
When compared to,
The great love,
You pour out upon me,
Change my heart God!
Cleanse me!
Soften my hardness,
Let me be tender,
And loving,
As you are to me.
In the sweet name,
Of Jesus Christ,
Amen

Deep Within

May God bless the woman
deep within me, the 
woman I'm trying to be.
May he mend where my 
heart is broken, & fill
every empty space. May
God erase the fears of my
past, to create in me a
brighter future. May He
make me slow to anger & 
quick to forgive.
- Amen

Prayer

Teach me
Your ways, Lord.
Help me control
my tongue and
speak words that
encourage and 
build other up.